"...because i have no idea what's right or wrong. my life is just... one long string of attempts to avoid making mistakes."

aya — !!

she / her, 04, intp | sx/sp - 5w4 - 514, feb-pisces, bpd + asd • jirai + denji riako + asa kinnie • nigerian + italian • switzerland, eng/ger OK

(˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) yayy !!
denji, csm, asaden psychology, jirai kei, seals, ano, poetry, my melody, bunnies, usahana, gelato, seafood, lychee
(◞‸◟;) uhmm no..
amphibians, bell peppers, spiders, being ignored, liars, being called a liar children (babies)

"tired of my inability to maintain a lasting relationship with another human being. i'm just tired. maybe i'd be better off dead."

..before u follow..

01 i‘m NEET so please don’t ask me work related questions unless we‘re at least semi-close. i‘m kinda tired of it.
02 i (soft)block people freely. if you’re blocked and don’t know why you can dm and ask. /gen
03 i interact with jiraitwt moots on shedtwt and whilst i’m not a shedtwt acc myself, be aware that i might reply to slightly sensitive posts from my moots. i occasionally rt art that depicts sh.
04 i'm a non-sharing denji yume
05 feel free to ask to be moots if you’re on jiraitwt or yumetwt too !!
06 if i say something offensive or ignorant please dm me and educate me if you can/want to. the character limit makes it very hard to get my point across clearly sometimes.

..do not interact... ..

fit basic dni + kin and yume doubles, born after 08 (except already moots), self-dx personality disorders as a minor, yoshiden and rezeden shippers
(˵ •̀ ᴗ •́ ˵ ) ✧ denji’s yayy’s !!
my cooking, going in dates, hugs and cuddles, when i read hin to sleep, forehead kisses, traveling, penguins
( • ᴖ • 。 ) denji’s eww‘s..
rude people, liars, people who disrespect me, authority figures, math, reading and writing

..why we love each other !!..

denji has a hard time making sense of and communicating his thoughts so as someone who tends to over-explain herself, i was able to slowly teach him how to process things in a healthier way, which is something denji really appreciates. he also loves food and i love cooking and baking and even tho i sometimes get insecure about what i make, he is always super supportive and encouraging, goes for seconds and finishes everything on his plate. we understand and complete each other really well in so many ways. he appreciates the small things i do for him and always thanks me for it, which makes me feel needed and loved. he kinda sucks at comforting people, but i don’t really mind since even his small gestures like offering me water and tissues are more than enough. we also both love aquariums and looking at the stars.
boundaries !!
my feelings towards denji are very real, so i am strictly non-sharing. the only cc x cc ship i am comfortable with is asaden because i am asa. any other ship oc x cc and cc x cc makes me uncomfortable. we also celebrate his birthday on the 22nd of september. more about that here !!

..about denji’s birthday !!..

since denji never got an official birthday i used a little bit of critical thinking skills, astrology and numerology to give him a birthday. until he gets an official birthday i will be celebrating his birthday on 22.09. here’s a summary of my theory.
the aki / gun devil incident happened on the 12.09. from there on denji had enough time to inherit half of akis money and get himself and power an apartment with that. they then spend some time trying out new foods and playing video games. i theorized that all of this was maybe in a span of 10 days. after this denji goes out to get ice cream, where makima finds him and takes him to her place where soon after power shows up with his birthday cake.
using numerology and astrology ( i’m just a bit silly ) i decided that denji must be a virgo and have 4 as his life path number. he’s born in 1980 so to get a 4 and still make him a virgo he’d have to be born on 22.09.1980 — this also adds up with the appropriate timeline of part 1.
boundaries !!
therefore, please respect that i celebrate his birthday on 22.09. i’d be happy if my oomfs joined the celebrations so everyone is welcome to wish him a happy birthday ^^
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03mac cosmetic
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my top 3s!

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